2/7/2017 1 Comment Breast Feeding in PublicHey to all my Mommas' out there. The most EMBARRASSING thing happened to me this week. Okay so first off I want to say that I have to problem with those who powder feed or those who breast feed. Being a single mother who doesn't make alot of money I chose to breast milk feed due to the fact it was nutritious and free.
Anyway okay so I was out at Walmart and Lou woke up and started screaming. So I went to the back and was feeding her. This woman came to me and asked if I would care to go outside or just leave if i needed to feed her. Never have I been more embarrassed in my entire life. First off I had my cover up on. You couldn't see any of my boob. Second off it was freezing outside, and my child was hungry. Why would I need to go outside where people will be smoking to feed my child. She only feeds for a short time anyway. I wanted to cry and punch the lady on the face. I was so humiliated. But don't worry Ladies I stood my ground, and just kept feeding her, then I finished my shopping. #itsnatrual #shewashungry #mamabear
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2/6/2017 0 Comments My C-SectionHey Guys! My name is Olivia Fields, and I gave birth to Elouisa Nicole as a single mother. But I didn't give her "naturally". First off I want to say that my pregnancy was just as real as anyone else. I had contractions, the pain of feeling her kick. I had the excitement of the gender reveal .
I understand that having a baby naturally is painful and tiring. So is having the c-section. I had stitches and a cut all up my stomach. I had to be careful with how I picked up my child for the first weeks of her life. I will forever have a scar on my stomach reminding me of the painful procedure i had done to help safe my child's life. but then for the media to tell you, that you didn't do it correctly, is completely ridiculous. So to all my C-Section Mommas out there: You are REAL you are BEAUTIFUL you have THIS. Mother Verb: bring up ( a child) with care or affection. Am I the only one who feels like they are failing. Elouisa is still young but I feel like I am failing her already. She gets more love than most kids get in a lifetime. But she still needs a dad. But the thing is she will never have that so I feel very sad and scared that she may not have certain kinds of things that other kids will.
It's been difficult raising her alone. I don't have the help of a parent or co-parent. I've had to stop what I'm doing to do something for her multiple times. I don't get enough sleep, which makes me feel bad. Because I feel like i should have more energy to take her to the park or to the zoo, but the weekends i am so exhausted. Normally she goes to Grannies and Papas for Saturday. So that's the one day I get to myself, which I do all my cleaning . I am nervous for the future, i know she will have everything in this world that she needs, and all that she wants. I just hope growing up she doesn't make the same mistakes I did. But I know she will be just fine in this big world, she just needs to learn to fly. |
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